Anger
So she did it again. She hasn't payed the rent yet. This time, to get on my nerves. Should I allow her to drive me insanely mad?I know I'll get the rent sooner or later. I wonder what she will say when I confront her, face to face? She's such a coward, in every sense of that word.
I've tried to analyze what made me so mad the first time. It was like all sorts of primitive feelings emerged and my adrenaline was pumping an all time high. It made me wonder wether or not it's good for the human body to experience this type of stress every now and then...I suppose we have the adrenaline mechanism for a purpose..?
Anyway, I came to the conclusion that what made me mad was a combination of things:
-1. From nowhere, she sent me nasty textmessages. She had always kept it on a civil level, and all of the sudden; a 180 degree turn.
-2. She was threatening my property.
-3. She made false allegations that made me re-think my self-image.
All of these things made me go crazy. I didn't know how to react, beacuse I had never been in a situation like that. My life is very peaceful, and I considered myself to be a very peaceful person.
So how did I react?
I sunk..I sunk real deep. Even though at first I promised myself to say nothing.
It still feels like I have a couple of levels until I reach hers. So far, I'm not in the mood to be the better person.
But we will se what happens.
posted by AfricanBombata @ 8:43 AM
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